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Time to create, even thought it was with the children at work was something that I was grateful for this week. In between trying to balance study time and work, we are into lockdown 6.0. This meant that my hairdresser appointment was cancelled for the 4th time. Still I got my assignment submitted before deadline as I had the time! No FOMO for me 😀

Grateful 31/52

Finally we are out of lockdown 5.0 after 14 days in our 5km radius. Today was a sunny day, so we had the wheels to get us out of the city with our lovely comfortable car. With the beautiful weather (it is still cold even though the sun is shining) we went for a drive that is 1.5 hours away from our home. These pics are from the great mountain ash forests of Victoria, a place called Wirrawilla Rainforest walk in Toolangi National Forest. With every amazing old growth forest there is a back story and were prime logging territory from 1909 these forests regenerated after a bushfire in 1939 and up until the 1950s the big old trees were coming down to make cladding the roofs of Victorian houses.

We also discovered that this forest is threatened again, as the surrounding forest has been slashed and burned for copy paper – such a disaster! Australia with its lack of respect for our environment love their free resources for a select few people – who will be dead in 20 years, pocketing the money and ruining an ancient ecosystem. The carbon capture of these forests is what we need to protect!! I found out there is a campaign that has been running for years to save this incredible pocket of wilderness which we enjoyed today and it is the Great Forest National Park. Here’s to making that a reality.

I stand with these amazing giants and I will be there to protect them in whatever way that is humanly possible and it is for places like this that exist that I am grateful for. When I wander these places, I feel that my body resets itself towards what I really care about and I feel grounded again. Today after the rains we did get stuck in the mud as we were walking but it was so worth it!! I love this place and I would come back again, hopefully soon x

PS – the fungi in amongst the fallen logs were just beautiful to see. I watched the film Fantastic Fungi on Friday and I appreciate how important these little beauties are for everything.

Grateful 30/52

We are in another lockdown since Friday 16th July, where the days have been extremely slower but that is OK! I am enjoying my time as I have assignments to do for Uni, as well as weekly readings and note taking in between work. Yep, I have been at work while the Delta strain is floating around in the air but thankfully I am half way immunised. The kids are there with their snotty noses and coughs but what can you do – all parents need a reprieve from their little ones. We take them outside to run and run because they need it!

Even though I have relished the time at home studying away – I should have had appointments with the vet, myotherapist and the hairdresser. The hairdresser appointment has been reschedule three times now, so thank goodness it is winter and I can wear a beanie to hide regrowth and overgrown hair!! Still the big cancellation was our 15 year wedding anniversary dinner which was on Friday, that was replaced with an indoor feast of Middle eastern food from this amazing restaurant Rumi in Brunswick East. We ordered the vegan feast and it was divine, the meat eaters ordered meat balls and we were set for a family anniversary celebration with a bottle of Moet and Chandon champagne which was a housewarming gift from our builders. Perfect!

I am definitely thankful for the amazing choices we have living in Melbourne to make the most of lockdown and support local restaurants including the local florist who provided the amazing flowers in the picture above – I am truly grateful we live here and call it home.

Grateful 29/52

Here is the last picture of my Dad’s car that my Mum gave me after Dad passed away. Mum did not need it and I did not have a car, so I got it shipped to Melbourne where it was my little run around car for the last year or so. It has been a stepping stone towards our independence and the realisation that a car to get around can be helpful. I took this little Festiva to get a roadworthy but the repairs were worth more than the car so we decided to trade her in before the registration was due. My Dad loved this car and he took great care of it even though it was had big holes of rust and was 21 years old. I feel that this was just like when we were in America we drove around in a really old Honda Civic for years until it could go no more, it is great to have cars that can go and go and it makes you really appreciate the next level of car! I was so happy to drive Dad’s car around locally and to work, but to pick up our new car it was a bit of a rough drive on the highway – I was really scared to drive 100km.

Now we have a 2017 Subaru Impreza and it is such a dream to drive with all the technology. As I was showing my son, he said this is everyones “normal” in this car. It made me think how grateful I was that Mum gave me the car after Dad passed as I felt as if we were driving around together. I am super happy to have a new car to get around in especially now in winter with the rain and the cold – having a temperature controlled car is amazing! So farewell little Festiva, you did well and I thank you for showing us a little bit of freedom in the time we had you. It was super helpful for our trips to the shops and to visit friends. Enjoy your next life.

Grateful 28/52

Last week it was back at Uni but I took a cheeky day out tot he city to see an art exhibition that was in the Flinders Street station ballroom. One word – amazing! I loved the journey the exhibition took me on with its focus on care for the environment and each other. Patricia Piccinini is an artist who I have always followed and this exhibition the audio tour on your phone created a wonderful connection to the work. I came home way more wiser to our ways on this earth and way more respectful towards caring for the planet. The whole exhibition made you contemplate the fragility of life and how as humans we do have the power to make teeny tiny changes that can help our children’s future. I was so grateful to have the time to go and visit this show so it could have the power to change me too.

Grateful 27/52

I have loved having the freedom to do whatever. The only issue I had to deal with to get some projects completed has been the weather as it has been super cold outside over the weekend and it was not the best time to work on my nature strip garden. Instead I went out for brunch with a friend to the city all rugged up, we have made plans to catch up once a month, which is something to look forward to.

Today I write this when I am now officially back into study mode! I have my air diffuser with some focus essential oils to get into the groove. I have to say that I am so grateful for having the time last week to order outdoor furniture from IKEA and I made it with my daughter and it looks fab! All my indoor plants have had a makeover and have been repotted or cleaned and they look beautiful. Plus I have been sewing away and making dress pinafores for my placement coming up in August/September and that has been a lot of fun. All this has happened in between teenager sleep overs and appointments for the dentist and the like.

Yay to a week of completing projects and having time to myself.

Grateful 26/52

The biggest thing I am grateful at the moment is time. Time to do nothing. Time to just be. Time to pet the cats. Time to do some gardening. Time to watch TV and do whatever I want to do! I am really enjoying this time with propagating some plants with help from books from the local library. I am also sewing and have a couple of projects in the works with an overall dress, they are so comfortable. Not having to sit around on my computer and do Uni work is an absolute pleasure as work has been pretty full on with the last few days of term and having the time to chill in the evening has been the best! I only have the next week to enjoy the time I have left so I will treasure each day and hopefully get all the stuff that needs to be completed – done!

I have an IKEA order of outdoor furniture to come this week so that will be a project with the kids. I also have to find a car as Dad’s 20 year old car registration is coming up in August, so I gotta get that happening. It is such a mission to find a car but hopefully we can manifest one easily enough? I also ordered some pots from IKEA so I am looking forward to setting up some more little plant friends around the place. All very exciting, as some things have been on my “to do list” for ages.

But no pressure here, it is time to relax and enjoy this free time before Uni starts up again next week!!

Grateful 25/52

Time is something that is such a precious gift that we never know how much we appreciate it until the free time is no longer there. I have been just rolling along and just getting things done I did not realise that I needed that time just to be and have nothing in my schedule. Last weekend we finally had some sunshine, so I spent most of the day in the garden catching up on all the amazing plants in my garden. I have a little project on the nature strip that has been on and off since we moved in and I finally had some time to give it some love. There is still heaps to do but having a garden to appreciate and take care of makes me feel so grounded. I love to take care of living things and seeing them flourish, especially seeing the earthworms and collecting them for my vegetable garden on our little courtyard. Gardening is an ongoing passion that began with succulents, now it extends into my house with my indoor plants and the yard around our house. It is a perfect way for me to chat to the neighbours and spend my days in the dirt, so I am thankful that I have the ability to take care of plants with the energy to keep them alive!

Grateful 24/52

Sometimes life literally throws you challenges that make you want to give up, due to the annihilation of your values. My profession makes me particularly vulnerable to this, where interactions with little people can truly upset what you believe in. In particular, experiencing children lack of respect for their teachers. I understand children have strange ways of expressing themselves. It was through an incident where a child was relentlessly throwing sand right up to my face was the time that truly made me think what the hell am I doing this job for? I was thinking that this child cannot even listen to stop where the stronger the reprimand the worse the throwing became, picking up more sand and then aiming it higher and higher, and eventually, the sand was in my eyes. Children can be bullies and it is at this time when I feel, “stuff this there is no way this kid can learn anything!”

But it is at these moments we need to go inside ourselves and find why we are so triggered by these behaviours. Yes, I have had my time with domestic violence in the past which was the initial trigger that welled up the tears but digging deeper I realised that it was the sadness I felt for a child that feels that the only way they can interact is through testing boundaries with other humans. I am going to come out of this week feeling grateful for a supporting team at work and for my family to realise that there are many people like this in the world. This little person will not be the only one who challenges my values of respect, trust, and kindness – adults do the same thing but we choose to distance ourselves from toxic humans. I realise that my time with this child is only a blip in their life and the only way for me to teach kindness is to go back to that group of children and just be there, listen, and learn. It is through shared experiences that we develop our resilience and learn from each other.

So thank you little human, you have a lot of carry in your life but you need to realise that there are people who care.