Finally I am feeling a bit more focused to begin the next phase in our life. Now that Uni is nearly over and I have a break for a month it is time to get some organisation happening so our packing process in September to our renovated home will be a smooth one! I am absolutely thrilled to realise that this will be our last move to our home. Over the last couple of years I have packed, donated, unpacked, passed on, boxed up and sold a lot of our stuff but now its time for a more severe clean out!
I am so thankful to be living in a civilised society with all the madness going on in the world at the moment with Black Lives Matter. Racism is an ugly undercurrent that unfortunately still exists in our society. Most of us are immigrants who have chosen to live in many parts of the world that we love, away from where we were born people do not get it – we live in a world of many nations and people. As an educator I am always reflecting on bias and this is the one thing that matters to instil in children that everyone is equal, no matter what colour you are. I watch children play together when they are 3 to 5 years old, somehow there is no filter to who you play with – it is the adults in children’s who create the negative bias towards others, for what?? Yes everyone has experience and a story to tell but it is important to process, learn and move on from the negativity towards others. The racist rhetoric that still exists in America and definitely Australia needs to change but how can we do this without seeing other peoples perspectives, the white man is still in charge where colonialism, corporation and greed overrule. Most people know what is right and we all have to believe and support each other, even if this means to go to your local Israeli felafel shop and enjoy a lunch in the sunshine! Get over yourselves, the world would be way more boring if we did not live in such a diverse multicultural world.
Now to the some good news for the next few months. I am finally working again as I was offered a maternity cover role as a co-educator at the kinder where I did my placement last December. It has made me so happy to be working with children again. I feel the impact that an educator can have on a child is something that they can take with them for their future. The early years of a child’s life is a phenomenal growing period where they are processing and learning so much and it is so important that the role models who interact with little ones promote positive behaviours. There is so much at stake for little people and the time they spend at preschool prepares them for so much! My new job is part time and it will balance beautifully with my University schedule so heres to knocking over the rest of the year with a truly positive light.
When a parent is taken away from your life, your world is incomplete and turned upside down. We had the funeral last Wednesday for Dad and the days have been speeding by, with each day working away through all the paperwork, pictures and memories of our life in our family. It is pretty difficult and emotionally exhausting to dig through photos but then on the bright side we discover some gems and reminisce about our memories together. My sister and I have been busy at work going through all the closets and clearing out anything that is not useful and donating to local charities in the neighbourhood. The recycling bin is chocca block with papers and I have found so many photos that my sister and I have sent our parents over the years hidden in bags in different areas of the house. Really who has so many walls to hang all theses photos and pictures – I had to apologise to Mum for sending her so much stuff over the years!!
Still going through the many pictures of our family life and travelling through time. At the moment it is so strange where I contemplate my life at the moment – where am I is this the right place where I should be in time? I have been living at an Air Bnb where I grew up in Queensland and after living in the USA for so long everything in our life overseas is like a distant memory. With all this time by myself I am reevaluating my journey through life with the memories fleeting in and out of my mind as I am wandering along the beach at sunset.
My sister and my mum are looking through the many albums documenting our times together growing up in this beautiful part of the world in the sunshine – where we were so free! Of course we did not appreciate it at the time and called our town Deadcliffe! Our lives focussed around celebrations and food and looking back I can see how my parents entertaining had a huge influence on my life. The other funny thing is going through the cupboards and drawers at my parents place is how my cupboards and drawers looked like before I applied the magic of Marie Kondo in my house 😀 Admittedly there are still a couple of drawers or spaces in my house that connect to my parents, and my kids think it is hilarious as we have a space with bread tags and rubber bands too!
Witnessing beauty in nature is something I wrote in the memories for the service of my Dad. On the day of the funeral I saw this massive bug fly by and it happened to be a stink bug that lived on the yellow flowered bush when we were younger. I currently have an incredible feeling of being hyperconnected to nature, where many serendipitous moments hold some meaning. Over the years we enjoyed family time together and back in the day there was this amazing retro restaurant in Redcliffe called the Fish Bowl and here we are enjoying a feed in amongst the vintage finds! Yeti the cat in the centre was Dads fave and there he is amongst the bushes under the stairs with so many beautiful tropical plants in the yard that Dad planted – it would be so nice to get some cuttings but I cannot take any plants over the border.
This was the sunset on the day we said farewell to Dad, the colour in the skies was lit up in so many shades. Every day I have enjoyed a walk in amongst the waters of these beaches and the feeling of the water and sand grounding me to the earth creates incredible memories that will hold dear to my heart. I know that every time I visit my mum in the future, I will have to come back to these beaches and spend time with my Dad and hear him say “Bye sweetie”.